Tuesday, September 21, 2010

{Psalm 13}
1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever? 
How long will you hide your face from me?

2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts 
and every day have sorrow in my heart? 
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. 
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;

4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him," 
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

5 But I trust in your unfailing love; 
my heart rejoices in your salvation.

6 I will sing to the LORD, 
for he has been good to me.

{I bet most of you could pick out that line without me coloring it green and putting it in italics}

It has been very hard...just one of these feats would be hard by themselves...but two...

This weekend we had one of our boys run away...but I still got all of my homework for Monday AND Tuesday classes done...only the Divine could have been involved in that, for sure

So it's not a matter of wondering if we are in the wrong place...it's a matter of who we are putting our trust in...the hubbs and I have for sure been praying more together since we took on this house parenting job...but we sense a lack of scripture in our lives and a lack of quiet time...and scriptures ,like the one above, prove to us that we NEED this good, rich nutrient to survive from day to day.

I have always seen such beauty at the end of myself and knowing that God is working in spite of me.  The hubbs and I have come to end of ourselves in a short four weeks...so we are ready...GOD USE US PLEASE!  

But what we continue to see is a broken world that has shaped the hearts and souls of these boys in our home...and God's unfailing love is the only thing that can remodel.

Oh God, my God...why has though forsaken me?  Why would you bring us here, just to show us that we don't know anything about how to change the lives of these boys?

And He smiles down and says:

"Trust in my unfailing love, and your heart will rejoice in my salvation."

I will sing to the Lord, for He has been good to me.

Much love,
Emily Elizabeth

1 comment:

  1. I agree...the closest I have ever been to God, is when I have come to the end of myself...so it really is in my weakness that I find his incredible strength (and love ).
    raying for you,